Weekend

Weekend 44: Currently

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watching Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown… new episodes, repeats, all of them. I love his honesty and his truth and really just him.

started season 2 of Stranger Things and wishing I was a kid in the 80’s. I’m sure my mother would say, “Ugh why?” haha, but it just seemed like a simpler time.

thinking a great drinking game would be binge watching the first season of Stranger Things and having to take a drink every time they say Will’s name, because it’s a lot.

feeling very proud of my 7 mile run today. The last mile was a lot of walking, but my hips were sore and that hill was huge. Can’t wait to continue working on these 7 miles and seeing where I can get to next.

looking forward to pumpkin season being over because every recipe I find is pumpkin this and pumpkin that and no thank you.

listening to Demi Lovato every day. Who am I?

decided on a goal for the last two months in 2017 and thinking about some new goals for 2018.

waiting on my sister’s birthday gift to ship. I ordered it in August and it has YET to ship. Her birthday is in 11 days. I ordered my Dad’s birthday gift on Thursday (his birthday is in 5 days) and got it in the mail on Friday… figure that one out would yah.

forgetting that Tuesday is Halloween, but also not really caring? Is that okay?

wearing oversized hoodies, thick socks and comfy pants all weekend. Fall has finally arrived in full force and one of the best parts is layering all of the clothes. One of the worst parts is still being cold after all the layers. *cough* my office *cough*

Have a safe Halloween, friends. Keep an eye out for those kiddos if you’re out driving during trick or treating hours.

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Weightloss

Keep Pushing

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The photo on the left was taken on September 18th, 2016 and the photo on the right was taken on Tuesday. The only reason I thought to put these two photos together was because when I put this shirt on it fit noticeably different. I love this photo because it shows all the work I really put in the last year. The girl on the left was just starting to learn how to eat again after her 100 pound weight loss and 18 pound weight gain. However, she wasn’t feeling good physically or mentally. She felt puffy and not herself. She was disappointed and not understanding why she had put on 18 pounds since April. She was about to embark on a hard winter, but a winter she would fight her way out of. She just started high intensity interval training and was working out 5 days a week. The girl on the right is down more than 20 pounds and has moved on to Crossfit. The girl on the right is having fun eating. She knows how to enjoy things and likes planning her meals. She is loving her gym and her workouts. The girl on the right is strong. The girl on the right is proud.

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Random Thoughts

Introduction to the Blog

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They say when you start a blog your first post should be an introductory post and it should outline what you plan on writing about and your goals. Every time I started to write a post like that it sounded dumb and pointless. So, I decided to put this post off until after a few entries. I’ve gone back and forth over starting a blog for close to 10 years, but I never had a direction I wanted to take it. Recently I’ve felt like I needed to share my story. I needed to share the things I’ve been through and the journey I’ve been on. I’ve noticed that the more open I’ve become with people the more they open up to me. It made me realize that we all go through similar things. We all have similar struggles. If I’m open and willing to share mine maybe it’ll help one person see that they aren’t alone. Maybe it’ll show them that it’s okay to ask for help.

I started this blog off on a rough note, but that’s kind of how I do things. I just dive in. That’s of course after I obsess over every way something will fail and every way I will screw it up (hi! my grammar game is not strong), but THEN and ONLY then will I dive in. I’m someone that does not enjoy small talk and by not enjoy I of course mean loathe. I like deep and meaningful conversations. I like learning about people and hearing about their plans and goals. If you want to talk about the weather you can keep it moving. Tell me your deepest darkest secret or get lost. In all seriousness (just that last part was a joke.. I really do dislike small talk) I plan on keeping you up to date on my depression. Winters are tough and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little nervous for the coming months. I plan on posting my self-doubts and my bad days. I’m going to post them for myself because writing them out makes me realize how silly they can be. I’m also going to post them for you to show that we all have negative thoughts and bad days. I’m going to push myself to share my fears and failures. The goal is to be as open as possible or as open as I’m willing to get.

The blog wont be all doom and gloom. I want to post about my good days too. My time spent with my friends and family, outings and adventures. I want to share about movies and the books I’m reading. I’ll be posting about music because music is literally life. I plan on posting about my weight loss and that incredibly long journey and where I’m at with it currently. I’m going to post about my fitness journey and my goals in that department. I’m going to post about work and my long and short term goals in life. I’m going to post everything and anything I want. If you have questions or recommendations feel free to share them with me. I love the feedback.

Speaking of feedback, the outpouring of support I received on my posts about depression were unexpected and so moving. I received texts from friends saying their boyfriends were reading them. I received messages from people telling me they have gone through similar things or are going through it now. I received support, love and motivation. I truly cannot express how much your comments and love meant to me. I think most of us keep a lot of things locked up and I’m certainly guilty of that, but we all have things we need to talk about. We all have things we need help with. Sharing and opening up to all of you showed me that we are not alone.

So, thanks again and stay tuned. I have a Halsey (eek!) post coming up. It might actually turn into two posts. I’m excited! See you soon.

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