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Simply Complicated Review

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I’ve never been a Demi Lovato fan. I’ve never had an interest and her music never really did anything for me. However, I’ve paid some attention to her struggles and honesty over the last few years. When I started to hear about her YouTube Documentary I knew I wanted to set time aside and check it out. I must admit I was surprised with her story. I had no idea how bad her drug use was and how young she was when it started. Yes, she abused drugs and alcohol, but she also dealt with depression and everything that comes along with it.

She starts the documentary off with a great quote. She said, “The key to being happy is to tell your truth and be okay without all the answers.” This hit me hard and is a big part of why I started this blog. I need to tell my truth. I need to, or I’ll spend my whole life avoiding it and hiding it. Being open is hard. Feeling vulnerable and exposed is hard, but it’s necessary. It helps. Being okay without all the answers can be a huge struggle, but it will bring you instant relief. She went on to say that love is necessary, and loneliness is brutal. I think she means love is necessary to get through life. We need it and we need to accept it. Brushing love off is so easy and at times is my first instinct. If you know me at all you know I don’t say those three little words often and when I do it feels extremely unnatural to me. My best friend in high school used to always yell, “Say it back!” I never would. It’s not that I don’t love the person that is saying it to me (however, if I don’t I’m for sure not saying it back) it’s that saying it back makes me feel like I’m accepting that they love me and I’m not sure I do. I’m not sure I believe it. Loneliness is brutal. It really is, and I don’t mean in the way of not having anyone in life. I mean the mental loneliness. The feeling of being in it alone. That loneliness will kill you.

She talked about her struggle with cocaine. This isn’t something I can relate to so it’s not something I’m going to talk about, but during this time and in life she dealt with depression. She talks about how she had anger issues and was difficult to be around. She slept all the time and she struggled with herself. She said it’s embarrassing to look back at the person that she was. I can relate to this 100%. Anger issues is something I don’t think a lot of people think about when it comes to depression, but it’s something I dealt with. I can 100% relate to her being embarrassed when she looks back at herself. I’m embarrassed of myself and the things I said and the way I acted and the things I did. I know now why I acted the way I did and why I reacted the way I did, but it’s still hard to look back on. She was on the verge of losing everything in life. That’s when she finally surrendered. She says, “You have to surrender because that’s when the change is going to happen.”

She went into a lot of her personal life and relationships. During the filming it was the one year anniversary of when her family lost her Great Grandma. She was crying, and her mom was crying. Obviously, I related to this. The short video she shared of her Grandma was so cute. She also went into her relationship with Wilmer Valderrama and how they mutually ended things. She knew she had issues that she needed to concur and that she wouldn’t be able to if she was relying on him to take care of her loneliness. I thought this was amazing and I thought she was incredibly strong to admit this. It’s SO easy to rely on someone else to make you whole. I can see how I easily could have done that. I believe a relationship can thrive and be so much stronger if you aren’t relying on the other person so heavily. You need to be happy and healthy on your own in many ways. If you aren’t it’s all going to bubble to the surface in some form, at some point.

Her team got her into working out and using the gym as an outlet. They said in the past she wouldn’t even agree to talk about the gym or listen to someone talk about it and now she’s there all the time. She said it really helps and she knows that she’d be in a dark place without it. I couldn’t have said this better myself. A lot of people don’t understand my commitment to the gym and this is a big part of it. Mentally I need it and mentally it works wonders for me. She talked about how it’s a form of meditation because she’s not focused on anything in her head. The time I spend at the gym is the only time of day I’m not stuck on whatever crap I’ve been obsessing over all day. I’m focused and determined. The only things I care about are getting through the workout, my form, the weight I’m lifting, the distance I’m running, etc. It is an amazing break from life.

The documentary went into how she’s on a dating app and was discussing some of the people she has been dating. This part was comical and made me laugh. One of the guys she had been seeing texted her saying, “We good?” and she texted back, “New phone who dis.” I died. Get it girl. Hahahaha She went into how she’s a confrontational person. She doesn’t like to play games and she’ll go right to you and say, “…there’s something going on here… something is up… are we?… what are we doing?… what’s going on?” Her and I are so similar here. I’m not playing games. Are we both feeling this? Yes? Okay, what does that mean? Who wants to waste time. Let’s get moving or move on.

I loved how strong of a person she is, but I don’t think her and I could ever be friends in real life. She’s very aggressive, confident, blunt, etc. We are too similar, and it would not end well. However, she goes to this monthly emo night they have in downtown LA. It’s basically a bunch of people our age that dance and sing to emo music from high school. I can get down with that every day. I did download her new album after watching this. She was recording it during the filming and there were a lot of songs I liked. I have to say I really like the album. It’s fun and sexy and makes me want to dance. I find myself fist pumping a few times in a “Yes, girl! Yes!” kind of way. If you’re going to give it a listen I recommend “Games”, “Sorry Not Sorry” and “Lonely.”

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One thought on “Simply Complicated Review

  1. Reblogged this on and commented:
    This girl writes a review! I was captivated by what Rachel wrote.

    I like to watch a good documentary from time to time. If a celebrity is the reason for the documentary, however, I tend to skip past. I’m so glad I didn’t this time.

    This review is the reason I watched Demi Lovato’s documentary on YouTube. When I watched it, my sole focus was on the screen. I felt the sense of proudness, for Demi to share her story. How she overcame and still struggles every day.

    Addiction, depression, anxiety and any other form of mental health isn’t something to joke about. It needs a voice. To watch, how someone of a similar age to me, although one in the spotlight, can still follow her dreams, be open and honest about what she has been and is going through. Is taking a look at mental health in the right direction.

    Go check out Rachel post over on Strong Mind, Strong Body. Just click below. Go check out Demi Lovato documentary. Just go onto YouTube.

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